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I am having a very difficult time in my marriage. I’m a strong-willed person and keep trying to fight to make our marriage work. But one little disappointment or flash memory and I go into a downward spiral and just want the torment to end, and just end our relationship. My husband has always had an issue with porn, at times he would try to work on it, others he would be very open about it. He has had two affairs, one of them was for a few months and he was emotionally involved then decided to end it to save our marriage. That is the only step he took, I hardly see any effort from him towards making us better. We have four young kids and I feel it is mostly for them why we are still together. I want to get past things and work, but I’m exhausted in trying to do it what feels like mostly on my own.

           – Andrea

Dear Andrea,

Thanks for reaching out and sharing your situation with us. It sounds like you’re looking for more evidence of change in addition to him ending his second affair.

  • Actually, it’s a worthy ask.
  • You’re worthy of the changes needed.

You’ve got 4 children and I’m sure neither one of you want to go through the pain of all this again.  Because you’re not alone in your feelings and situation, I decided to write a BLOG to respond to your question, as it’s a very real and common concern.

Recovery takes effort. In my book, Intimate Deception: Healing the Wounds of Sexual Betrayal I have two chapters that I think may help you. One is on trauma triggers, Chapter 12 – Quick on the Trigger and the other is Chapter 9 – How He Can Help You Heal. I’ve had several husbands email or call me to tell me they’ve read my book and had no idea the extent to which they caused their wife pain. If your husband would be willing to read several pages, start with Chapter 9, page 131 which says:

“Change and restoration as a couple are possible. When a man embarks on his sexual recovery path, it’s not just for him; it’s for your sake as well. Most men know they’ve caused you pain. They see the hurt on your face, notice your withdrawal, and want the damage to quickly go away.

How men move through their sexual betrayal is a whole different issue and generally falls into three categories:

      1)   Those that get it—Men who are willing to recover.

      2)   Those that don’t get it—Men who are in denial.

      3)   Those that don’t want to get it—Men who have no desire to change. They are aware of what they’re doing and want to keep you and their reputation comfortably intact while they sexually act out.”

When I see a man who is serious about his recovery, he is willing to do whatever it takes to rebuild trust.

  • He attends a 12-step SA/SAA recovery group with other men to address his sexual breaches and make amends by restoring safety and truth, since he’s been looking at porn since he was young, plus has had two affairs.
  • He’s willing to get a sponsor in his 12-step program that will hold him accountable, talk with him daily, and support him while he’s turning things around.
  • He’s willing to see a Certified Sex Addiction Therapist (CSAT, They have specialized tools and training aimed at helping them dig deeper, heal from the issues involved in sexually acting out, and get into recovery/sobriety.
  • He would also be open to meeting with a marriage therapist to talk about your fears, concerns and any blocking beliefs that are keeping him from doing the deeper work. Time doesn’t heal wounds. Deep work heals wounds. Time doesn’t help in recovery. A deep commitment to active, honest, 12-step recovery work helps people get sober.

Andrea, I suggest you speak with an APSATS ( or CSAT partner trauma specialist who can walk with you along this path. We need a road map for how all this healing can take place. More often than not I meet women who have not reached out for help and painfully things either get worse or stay chaotic. Please don’t wait. Change can happen if you are both getting what you need to heal.

I’m for you Andrea. It’s too big to go it alone. My hope is that each one of us protects our families by facing our fears and reaching out for what we need. You’re worth it. Check out these trained professionals and partner support groups that are ready to help.

Brave On Girl!

Dr. Sheri

With 22 years experience as a marriage and family therapist, Dr. Sheri specializes in individual, couples and family therapy at her private practice. She believes in looking at issues from a psychological, biological and spiritual perspective. She's the author of "Intimate Deception: Healing the Wounds of Sexual Betrayal," founder of the BraveOne Community and the Bravery After Betrayal Retreat... Continue Reading